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[28 Aug 2005|01:10am] |
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well on the contrary to my last entry. Everything rite now sux, todays been hideous and it seems im gonna feel like this for a while. i havent been this upset in a longggg time but o'well i guesss every1 goes through it i just wish i wasnt. :(
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[30 Jul 2005|02:35am] |
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everythings just been the way i want it, i couldnt wish for it to be any better.
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| how my eyes seemed to fallow you like a hated addiction |
[01 Jun 2005|07:29pm] |
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o yea,,, its back on my mind alrite but ill never do it, say it, or admit it. but its there. ughh hehe
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| just like the setting sun |
[23 May 2005|07:14pm] |
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Yea i had a awfullllll weekend and this week seems to be going just as bad but there might be a positive coming out of this hmmm never know.
-last night i had the strangest dream of something i havent thought about in a while but i guess it was nice but in a way heart wrenching heh it was so distinguishing i woke and thought it was true for about 7 mins and it was a strange feeling one ive felt before but dont want to anymore because i know how it turned out, but i guess it was nice to reminisce.
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| FORGET ME NOT |
[10 May 2005|08:47pm] |
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the raptuere-killing |
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well well well seems like i had the same problems just the other day but really it was months ago ohwell well see where it goes from here.
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| Being Back At School Sucks Major Balls!!! |
[28 Apr 2005|11:35am] |
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Being Back At School Sucks Major Balls!!!
supposedly i got in a fight with sum1 at school today. With someone whom i havent seen at all today hmmm... go figure.
High School Drama cant wait till its over, never thought id say that but all this bullshit has forced me to say it.
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| So I said it, its out and admitted to my deepest darkest secret only a secret kept from you |
[25 Apr 2005|07:28pm] |
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Well well well... school and work tommorow back to the old schedule. ooo I wish, I wish, I wish i were back in Florida god i wish it was 9:00pm and i was sitting at the "Blue Fish" taking free shots of tequila with Raquel and Anthony. I wish it was 2:00am and i was walking out to the pool with Lana, and i wish it were the afternoon and Jenny and I were lying on the beach ahhh well back to reality.
(i love this one)---Lately i've been wishing i had one desire
something that would make me never want another
something that would make it so that nothing matters
all would be clear then
but i guess i'll have to settle for a for a few brief moments
and watch all dissolve into a single second
and try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
because that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
you are here and then you're gone.
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[23 Apr 2005|12:58pm] |
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THANK GOD GABRIEL'S BACK, finally hes jsut what i needed.
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| ill wear it every night <-securitey issues lol |
[14 Apr 2005|07:27pm] |
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im leaving in a few hours. Im happy, and also real sad :( <--- ill miss u wile im gone :::sniff::sniff:::
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| we pept up the peppers |
[17 Mar 2005|07:15pm] |
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FINALLY i gots my fish for marine bio since killer died in a day cause of his fish disease anyways i got 2 fish cause the type of fish it is needs to travel in a group? idk i didnt ask and,,, there GREEEN yesss there names are cous-cous and juniper named after my old pet geese may they rest in peace.
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[13 Mar 2005|04:32pm] |
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GREAT WEEKEND!!!!! these past 2 days have been everything worth remembering
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| i need a peace of mind |
[08 Mar 2005|01:27pm] |
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thank god it SNOWED, im sure no1 agrees with me on that but i really needed it, the beautiful weather of yesterday just made me afraid of change and although springs rite around the corner i just really wanted to take in the snow again although im sure it will snow again this month heh well it was a biotch and 1/2 to drive in it. aside from all that today was really good so far i took of work and have just been listening to sum death cab. i think im gona go take a walk in the snow just so i can remmber it so i dont freak out during the next sunny day thats to come along.
if it comforts to regret then let it be comforted.
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| dont play or fastforward please rewind or pause... |
[07 Mar 2005|06:22pm] |
well well well... i havent seriously updated this bad boy in a long time. things are pretty good i guess, the weather today was gorgeous, and i hated it. i dont want winter to end, i dont want summer to come. its far to soon and as lovely as the sun and warm weather maybe i just dont want to leave school and get that warm summery feeling that only feels good when ur not a senior, ughhhh i really dont want time to move i want to eather somehow pause it or rewind it, rewind would be cool i want to rewind to 10th grade and do over sooooooooo much stuff, so much and maybe after re-living all that i might want to move on, (meaow) im sleepy...
"elif, elif, elifff i made you out of clay, and when shes dry and ready my elif i will playyyyyyyyyyy............
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[06 Mar 2005|06:36pm] |
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death cab for cutie-when we laugh indoors |
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out of consciousness i visualized you outside my window creating footsteps in the snow on your way to my door to save me.
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[03 Mar 2005|06:21pm] |
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this girl(raquel) is hillarious
Auto response from Kewlgirl5 [5:43 P.M.]: i dremed you were carried away on the crest of a wave, baby dont go away! come here.
RoCca0214 [5:43 P.M.]: Idreamed i was ripped from the waves, and baby i went away, AND NEVA COMIN BACK NIGGA
ps: i got asked my ? thats been antisapated, i hope my response will be sumtin i wont regret.
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[01 Mar 2005|09:49pm] |
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Dear Elif,
I was at a complete loss for what to say in this journal of your's, so I decided to write you a letter.
-Scott
scotts entry was boring but ill thank him for taking the time to write it sooo ill update with sumwriting ive done, ive done alottt of writing lately......
(ill give, ull take)
i wish so bad to be the peacemaker in your soul, that might turn the rivalry and cluster of your elements into oneness and melody. but how should i unless you yourself be also the peacemaker, the lover of all your elements. i have such high hopes for all this i always have, im just a little girl 5'4 blond hair and gray eyes aside from my flaunted exterior im really jsut weak both physically and mentally i want to help u and god i hope i do but rite now ive left my passion unattended and now its become a flame that burns into its own destruction as for my soul alone its become a battlefield upon which reason and my judgement wage war against my passion and appetite.
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[28 Feb 2005|04:33pm] |
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finally we had an early dissmissal, o yea and news channel 12 was at school im in the background heh i was glad i got to go to gym tho were playing badminton that games the illest yea and i got out of work at 7 casue of the snow accumulations well i have nothing interesting to say hopefully i can have scott update hes more interesting than i.
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[27 Feb 2005|08:22pm] |
S tallion
C ock (is huge)
O pen wide
T itties
T itties
That is a poem I wrote about my black lover Scott.
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| I dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave baby dont go away come here! |
[27 Feb 2005|05:10pm] |
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mars volta-Via l'Viaquez |
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If you walk away, I'll walk away
First tell me which road you will take
I don't want to risk our paths crossing some day
So you walk that way, I'll walk this way
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We made love on the living room floor
With the noise in background of a televised war
And in the deafening pleasure I thought I heard someone say
"If we walk away, they'll walk away"
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[26 Feb 2005|09:08pm] |
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well today= went to the mall with my mom gots alottt of new stuff. later i gots my hur-did it soooo short but not as short as last year thank god. after all that eric and i chilled went to Rokys and talked about realll meaningful issues and touchy subjects it was really cute the way we opened up and thennn i went to lanas, cassie lia jude-jud kelly and aly picked us up and we went dancing in every parking lot it was allot of fun... then i found out im gona be asked a question soon hmmm i wonder what my response will be uhhh this means all im gonna do from now until then is ponder, oh my pondering sometimes gets confused real bad.
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